i really haven’t had a good last week. last sunday or monday my grandmother fell and broke her hip. she was laying in her bedroom all night until my mom found her in the morning. she had surgery and they put a plate and pin in her hip. the breaking of her hip in itself is not good, but then you add in the fact that she has severe heart and lung problems, has been on an oxygen tank for the last 4 years, and had a heart attack not even a year ago. she’s in a rehab hospital now but last night they had to take her back to the regular hospital because she was having chest pains. they found that her lungs were full of fluid so they did whatever they did to drain it and she went back to the rehab hospital. i don’t really know what’s going to happen from here. the odd thing is, i’ve been on computer most nights since then but i haven’t written about it in here before today. that’s just not me. i don’t know why i haven’t. my best guess is that writing it down makes it more real. and i don’t want it to be real.