This is so fucking not

This is so fucking not fair.
I signed up for Earthlink DSL on Monday. On that service plan, you get 20 hours of dial-up free. For every hour extra you get charged a dollar. They switched my plan from the unlimited dialup to the dsl on Friday (without even notifying me). It clearly states on their web-site that it takes 7-15 days for them to ship the dsl kit and can take 2-4 weeks for the dsl to be switched on. So why are they switching my plan when there is no possible way for me to even connect to the dsl and why are they planning to charge me for the time i connect to dial-up when i have no choice? I’m already on hour 13 of the 20.
This really fucking pisses me off. I have to do research online for my final paper. Not to mention who knows when they’ll get the kit to me and the dsl hooked up.

This constant stress of the final weeks of school is making me all messed up. I forgot my journal’s anniversary on the 19th.
I forgot my cat’s birthday on the 24th. This is something that doesn’t ususally happen. My cat is my baby. He’s 4 now, by the way.
I can’t sleep right. I get so tired at 10:30 pm that I’m unable to function. But when I go to bed I can’t fall asleep for about an hour and then I don’t sleep very well. These past two days when I could sleep in, I haven’t even been able to that right. I’d wake up about 9 or ten, feel totally unrested because I’d only gotten about 6 hours of actual sleep, then drift in and out of strange dreams until I got up at 11:30. Yesterday and today I felt so fucked up and weird because of sleeping like that. I feel totally miserable.

And now I can only connect for 7 more hours until I get the DSL without paying over the $50 I already have to pay for the DSL?
Fuck that.
I hate my life.
I feel like crying but it’s too much effort.
My life sucks.