why

why do i always have to spend so much time looking at other people’s sites? i’d get so much more work done on my own site if i didn’t. but i always need to know what’s going on in other people’s lives. if i don’t get a chance to read them at least couple times a week i feel left out.
i need to write an ‘in memoriam’ essay about my grandmother. it may be a little while yet until i’m able. it was a few weeks until i was able to write about my dog and a few years before i could write one about my cousin. i’m hoping it will be sometime soon. but i can’t rush it. i don’t think i’m going to say any thing about it in my journal. or maybe i will. or maybe i’ll just save it all for the essay. but i’m sure i’ll forget to say everything i wanted to say in it.